At last! Ten years of purgation are drawing to a close. A necessary period in a maturation process; a period that no one in their right mind would want, its necessity so hard to remember when the fires are burning; but a period for which I am profoundly grateful. This Great Divide stretched over a decade, with no guarantees that the outcome would be positive.
This morning I awoke at 07.30 at the completion of a dream. This dream began again a series of dreams which originally began in Thornhill Cottage, Holt, when I was 26; and then stopped at Reddish House in 1990 during the opening period of Endless Grief.
Although EG's own grief began in August 1988, with the collapse of the property market in the UK, their grief increased at the end of 1990 when Names on Lloyds' syndicate Marine 475 were informed of the extent of their initial liabilities. EG's grief was passed on to their artists, an illegitimate strategy. How to forgive the breach of trust, the sense of violation, involved in this? This is an effort which takes place in the subtle worlds; perhaps what we might call a "real" effort.
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E-flurrying. A morning of reading & reflecting, also writing new material for Crim & practising.
A significant day.
"Understanding is simple. Knowing is complicated."
